Sorry that I wasn't there

To My Dearest Honey,

Sorry that I wasn't there on your graduation ceremony. Sorry that I wasn't able to be there to witness the glory in your life, nor am I there to share the happiness you had within you.

I've a mixed feeling down within me. How should I put it? I'm happy that you've finally graduated, wearing that graduation robe with your smart outfit that you wore today. But, I was sad within, and I do not know why. You could say I'm having mood swings as the beginning of June is nearing. Or you could say, I'm just throwing tantrums.

All in all, I didn't mean to feel so moody. I know you didn't want me to be sad all along, and you wanted me to be happy. I am, deep in me, I am. But I'm just this moody today. Of all days, yes, it's today and I'm truly sorry about it.

I understand that I don't get to see you much today. And I'm truly touched that you came to see me before you head off to school. I understand of all the things you did for, no matter how big nor small they were.

You've graduated with a diploma, and hopefully, when you get your degree, I'm there for your graduation ceremony, and that is if it's possible. The road ahead of you is long, and many obstacles will set in front of you, we'll never know what will come our way. But rest assured, I'll always be there with you. :D

As like how much I wish to be there for your graduation ceremony, if I ever had one, be it in Singapore or overseas, I do hope you'll be there as well. I don't know why, but I just love your presence.

Sorry that I didn't attend even though you had another extra admission ticket due to your sister unable to go. Your mother is one of the reason, because I do fear her. I fear your family in actual fact, Woon Cheng is an exceptional.

Another was, I didn't want to go home alone. Because, like you, I fear loneliness as well. Maybe I'm already used to having you accompanying me home all this while, since the day we got together.

I know it's the stupidest reason, but that's how I feel. Maybe, I'm still being a child with you around. It's not that you're the one who's hindering my growth especially at this stage, but my dear, it is my who doesn't want to grow to be someone I ought to me, let say, much more mature and independent than now?

All in all, Happy Graduation my dearest. :D

XOXOXOXO
Your Wife,
Your Mouse.
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To Yee:

I didn't 'suan' you, I seriously do. I respect you as a sister in so many ways. And that if you ask me to do something, I would, because there's no reason that I should refuse my offer in helping you.

So don't get the wrong idea through the sms-es that I'm 'suan-ing' you. :D

Happy Graduation to you too. :D

- Micky-