For all those times you stood by me For all the truth that you made me see For all the joy you brought to my life For all the wrong that you made right For every dream you made come true For all the love I found in you I'll be forever thankful baby You're the one who held me up Never let me fall You're the one who saw me through through it all
You were my strength when I was weak You were my voice when I couldn't speak You were my eyes when I couldn't see You saw the best there was in me Lifted me up when I couldn't reach You gave me faith 'coz you believed I'm everything I am Because you loved me
You gave me wings and made me fly You touched my hand I could touch the sky I lost my faith, you gave it back to me You said no star was out of reach You stood by me and I stood tall I had your love I had it all I'm grateful for each day you gave me Maybe I don't know that much But I know this much is true I was blessed because I was loved by you
You were my strength when I was weak You were my voice when I couldn't speak You were my eyes when I couldn't see You saw the best there was in me Lifted me up when I couldn't reach You gave me faith 'coz you believed I'm everything I am Because you loved me
You were always there for me The tender wind that carried me A light in the dark shining your love into my life You've been my inspiration Through the lies you were the truth My world is a better place because of you
You were my strength when I was weak You were my voice when I couldn't speak You were my eyes when I couldn't see You saw the best there was in me Lifted me up when I couldn't reach You gave me faith 'coz you believed I'm everything I am Because you loved me
I'm everything I am Because you loved me
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If there's one thing that we, as human being, have to regret, that would be me flaring up. I didn't mean to, but it always did. I tried not to, but I failed. Things always turned out the way I didn't expect it to be. Hearts were broken, unhappiness took over.
If there's something I could turn things around, that would be my sincere apologies. Whatever I said, most probably didn't mean anything anymore, since I'm always hurting the one I love deeply.
Sometimes, it takes more than just a word of [sorry]. Sometimes, it takes more than actions. At times, I felt myself useless, and at times, I felt myself worthless. I didn't know why, but it's just a kind of feeling I had right now.
If I could turn back time, there's so much that I wanted to do and change myself. I so wanted to be me, I really do. And because of this, I kept wondering, am I already me? I know someone would be asking me, if I'm not me, then who am I? But you see, there's so many roles I have to play in life. A daughter to my parents, a sister to my siblings, a lovely wife to my dearest, and a friend to my friends. Sometimes, because of the roles I've played, I think I've lost myself somewhere deep within.
I know that time can't be turned back. I just wanted to let someone I love deeply to know that I would always love her no matter what happened between us. I've regretted in the actions I've taken or made, because I know that I could stop myself from being this way, it's just that I didn't try hard enough.
If you're reading this Honey, I'm truly sorry for what happened. I know of your strict family, I know of your situation, it's just that I ignore it due to my greediness. I miss you lots, and by hearing from you is the last thing I could ever wish for, when we're not meeting up. Maybe I'm too greedy, which resulted in two broken heart.
The song is for you. I hope you won't be feeling sad or having a broken heart anymore. When you're calm and needed a hug, you'll know where to get to me.
# Gain weight. The target weight is 45kg and above.
# Grooming classes. Need to save up for the course fee as well as the grooming equipments.
# Degree. Bachelor in Media Arts or Mass Communications. That is if I have decided to take degree before the grooming classes or change of route.
# Jot down daily expenses and total it up end of the month. It's time to start taking note of my daily expenses so that I won't overspend.
# Include fruits and vegetables in my daily diet. Time for a healthy diet. =D
# Exercise at least once/twice a month. Say hello to cycling around the neighborhood soon.
# Read at least 1 book a month. Any book will do.
11 Years
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Dear Papa, 11 years have passed since you left us. Even after 11 years,
everybody still talks about you like you are still around. Every now and
then, I st...
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