Having Many Thoughts

Sometimes thinking too much resulted to a sudden mood change isn't a good thing. That is one thing the wife didn't really like about me. She will try to advise me not to think too much.

I am having this thought currently. Thinking that what is it that I can call a friend my true friend, or someone that I can trust? It is not that I don't trust certain someone, but you know, it is better to be wary than not. After the past experience, it just gave me the shudder.

Someone once told me,

We don't need much friends. People comes in and out of our lives, some will stay, some will go. We just need to be contented with the amount of friends that stay in our lives forever.

How true can that be? I have seen many entering and leaving. When I said many, it meant since the day I met new people, and made new friends. When we were young, isn't it wonderful that we didn't really have to bother much about betrayal and all those nonsensical things people will do to us? As we grow, we begin to learn, to experience a new set of emotions. How nice can that be?

You see, how many of your primary school friends actually are in contact with you till this date? And how many of those actually speak to you and update you about what's happening in their lives as much as you want to share yours too? Then to speak about high school friends. How many till this date have hurt you so much, yet you still give them another chance to repent? You see, we go through so many stages in lives that sometimes we are so confused in which friend(s) we can actually trust?

We might be gullible in some ways. We might know that we are being used by friends, yet we didn't really bother to voice out or anything. Why? Is it because we do not want the friendship to turn sour or is it that we are afraid of hurting their fragile heart?

I may think these many reasons or whatever you may call it. But don't you people think about it too when something happened between you and your friends? Or sometimes you can't take the way people treat you anymore?